It’s hard for me to trust someone after what I’ve been through. I’ve trusted people easily before, & what happened? I’ve been disappointed, lied to, cheated on, played like a fool. & I just can’t seem to get over what other people have done to me. & I know it isn’t fair for you cause you haven’t done anything to me, but I have to be careful, I have to expect the worst, I have to shut you out sometimes, as much as I don’t want to, for my own good.
I have so many questions that i ask myself and i cant even answer them. Why do i do this? Is this how its gonna be forever? How much longer will i put up with this? Is it worth it? Days like yesterday when its all gloomy and rainy i just sit in my room by myself thinking and listening to r&b while my mind is up in the sky. I just wish things would be different.